When I first registered this domain name and set out out to blog, I never thought I would be able to go a month without blogging here. For openers I was laid off, was recovering from heartbreak and was in a low-energy place that most people would call depression, except that word is so all encompassing and loaded, I rather not use it to diagnose, just ballpark the issue.
This blog was my plan out of the mental and economic space I was in, so I wrote, I got better at writing, I got out of the house, I got a paying job and then some paying jobs writing. All and all, my plan worked and the plan was to retire the blog when I got to the point I wanted to be. Except once I got there I didn't want to let go of this space, I still enjoy writing about food, farms, meals, plants, crops and cooking, which is good, I just feel bad I don't have time to post here anymore.
|Corn, You're Not Even Trying. Look at the Peas, they are!|
Sometimes my Saucyman posting is little more than a good intention because I write for the market, like this entry on their blog, which was fun to write. And this, my monthly submission for the newspaper about what's in season was published here. Other times it's because I'm busy. Last week my dad was here, that's him at the ocean above. It's summer in Portland, the season less intense than predictable months of heat and humidity but in a way it becomes more intense with social obligations, plus the things you want to do, movies, beer, friends, cookouts which isn't to say social obligations are a chore, but they are obligations. All this activity in turn makes me want to spend time alone, yesterday I read Girl Gone – Franzen scale bourgeois loathing, entitlements and self-awareness only with action, okay action greater than defining the lint in your belly button after a prolonged session of navel gazing. Today it was gardening. Tomatoes good, herbs stubborn, corn only mid-calf and my knee wants to point out it's the 4th of July.
So I want to do better, don't know if I will have the time and energy in the long haul but for July it will get better. Later in the week, why I would totally marry hoisin sauce and not just because it's got good health insurance.